So it's been ages since I've blogged.
I've been really busy with wedding planning, freaking out, stressing, trying to work out, birthday parties, other weddings, work and so on, it's been hectic.
I can not believe that I'm getting Married on Saturday, it's seems so surreal but also really natural. I'm so nervous about walking down the aisle, I'm going to feel weird. I always care way too much about what people thing and it will be totes awks having over 130 staring at me. Awks guys, Awks.
Anyway, A while a go I went to my doctor because I'm always SO tired and I've had a lot of trouble losing weight even though I was working out really hard and eating carefully (calorie counting - yay myfitnesspal) anyway I got a letter in the mail saying I had to go back to the doctor to discuss my results. I love my doctor first and foremost for actually testing my bloods and not just fob me off and say to work harder or something like that, it turns out I have High Insulin levels :( it means that it can be quite a bit harder to lose weight due to this. SO I actually have to cut out carbs almost completely and ENSURE that I start eating really clean. Cutting carbs is going to be quite hard as pasta is the most amazing thing in the world BUT I NEED to do this, it's not something that I can just ignore. So I'm doing as much research as possible and will go back in a month or two and test them again to see if by trying to eat clean and keep my exercise up changes anything. Fingers Crossed.
Other News, In other news the big day is on Saturday. I can NOT believe it, so scary but exciting. Tallboy and I are getting very excited but we're both going to be nervous. I know it will work out fine and somethings will go wrong but it will still be an amazing day and night. I'm so excited to marry tallboy and some people said we wouldn't make it - um idiots lol.
Then we get to go on our minimoon (Poor honeymoon to Bali until we can afford to go back to America) and it will be so good. Shoppinggggg yay!! Then I have another week of work when I get home so that will be really nice.
So to sum it up, apart from the insulin hiccup life is going pretty good. Yay for me.
Wednesday, 25 April 2012
Saturday, 7 April 2012
hens day / night
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE It's my hens day / night!!
So excited and terrified.
I have already caught up for breakfast with friends.
I had lunch with my maid of honour and our other friend.
I am about to go for a midday nap before I start getting ready.
OMG So excited to get drunk and go party!!!
My lovely giant has already had to endure wearing two dresses, he's loving life.
let the fun begin. xx
So excited and terrified.
I have already caught up for breakfast with friends.
I had lunch with my maid of honour and our other friend.
I am about to go for a midday nap before I start getting ready.
OMG So excited to get drunk and go party!!!
My lovely giant has already had to endure wearing two dresses, he's loving life.
let the fun begin. xx
Monday, 2 April 2012
26 days to go
How scary 26 days to go and still no weight loss awesome.
I'm currently home sick with a viral infection, have the worst flushes of hot and cold at the moment and can't sleep, Oh the joys!
I had two weddings on the weekend, On saturday I was only able to go to the ceremony and that was hard enough to struggle through due to being so unwell. Then Tallboy went to the reception and I went straight home to bed. On Sunday we had a wedding to go to at the same venue as ours, it's so nice. I really love our venue it's just nice and relaxed. Poppy and Chids had their wedding and reception there it was beautiful I really liked it, had such a nice time but unfortunately couldn't drink or stay long due to the fevers. We left at about 7.30 - 8pm.
I decided to change my walk down the aisle song to something more slow and full meaning to evoke the emotions of the day. I'm excited about it.
I can't deal with typing any more.
I'm currently home sick with a viral infection, have the worst flushes of hot and cold at the moment and can't sleep, Oh the joys!
I had two weddings on the weekend, On saturday I was only able to go to the ceremony and that was hard enough to struggle through due to being so unwell. Then Tallboy went to the reception and I went straight home to bed. On Sunday we had a wedding to go to at the same venue as ours, it's so nice. I really love our venue it's just nice and relaxed. Poppy and Chids had their wedding and reception there it was beautiful I really liked it, had such a nice time but unfortunately couldn't drink or stay long due to the fevers. We left at about 7.30 - 8pm.
I decided to change my walk down the aisle song to something more slow and full meaning to evoke the emotions of the day. I'm excited about it.
I can't deal with typing any more.
Thursday, 29 March 2012
less than a month to go
Less than a month until the wedding.
Honestly I have no idea how people can get caught up in this and do it over and over again, No thank you.
I know the day will be worth it and my time with Tallboy will be amazing but I haven't enjoyed much of the planning stages at all. It's actually quite disappointing to look back on it all and to see who has been really selfish about it, who won't be a part of it, to see where we have gone so wrong with our plans and budget, how we didn't prepare properly. I am just so over it. I can't wait to marry tb but the stress is horrific. My skin, lips and hair have gone into meltdown, absolutely terrible.
We have to pay everything off in the next two weeks which should be fine but I still have to finish a complete tafe unit (no motivation)
I have to find shoes for the girls, find jewellery for us all, get ribbon for the cake, arrange the seating plan, find a first dance song, find an entry song, create the run sheet for the MC, get the centre pieces sorted, get a guest book, do a hair trial, get my extensions in, find photoshoot locations, do a final food tasting, create the ceremony flow, find my wedding shoes and a lot more. Unorganised and stressed out and still working out SO hard and not losing ANYYYYY Weight. Fattest bride ever!!!
Honestly I have no idea how people can get caught up in this and do it over and over again, No thank you.
I know the day will be worth it and my time with Tallboy will be amazing but I haven't enjoyed much of the planning stages at all. It's actually quite disappointing to look back on it all and to see who has been really selfish about it, who won't be a part of it, to see where we have gone so wrong with our plans and budget, how we didn't prepare properly. I am just so over it. I can't wait to marry tb but the stress is horrific. My skin, lips and hair have gone into meltdown, absolutely terrible.
We have to pay everything off in the next two weeks which should be fine but I still have to finish a complete tafe unit (no motivation)
I have to find shoes for the girls, find jewellery for us all, get ribbon for the cake, arrange the seating plan, find a first dance song, find an entry song, create the run sheet for the MC, get the centre pieces sorted, get a guest book, do a hair trial, get my extensions in, find photoshoot locations, do a final food tasting, create the ceremony flow, find my wedding shoes and a lot more. Unorganised and stressed out and still working out SO hard and not losing ANYYYYY Weight. Fattest bride ever!!!
Tuesday, 27 March 2012
ughhhh
I don't understand!!
I have been working out SO hard, I kid you not, SO hard, I have been eating less AND better food, I do 2x Personal Training sessions a week at 5am in the morning, I do boot camp once a week and I do pole and tone (Pole Dance) classes once a week! All high intensity, all demanding a lot of hard work and STILL no weight loss! How is this happening??? It's not possible for your body to platoe and not lose weight for over 6 weeks. I don't understand at all. I am getting very frustrated and am lacking the motivation required to keep this up.
It's soul destroying. kind of, not really, lil bit. Boooooooooooo!!!!!!!!
I better call my friend Kate Moss and see if she has any charlie for me, Kiddingggggg. Ughhhh If only being a crack whore wouldn't ruin my life, morals, values, gums, nostrils, internal organs and brain, then i'd TOTES be set! FML.
In other news, aside from being a fat bride to be, I have been full on. One month and One day until the wedding!
Had a horrific week last week and fought with Harry Potter, stressed myself out to max, now I have terrible skin, hair and cracked lips. I tried to start my second Unit of Tafe but I failed at doing that, then I slept a lot.
This week has been better, I started doing the seating plan for the wedding, redid the budget for a more structured payment plan and now i'm trying to sort out a time frame for the day - it's not going well.
So that's me for now. over it.
I have been working out SO hard, I kid you not, SO hard, I have been eating less AND better food, I do 2x Personal Training sessions a week at 5am in the morning, I do boot camp once a week and I do pole and tone (Pole Dance) classes once a week! All high intensity, all demanding a lot of hard work and STILL no weight loss! How is this happening??? It's not possible for your body to platoe and not lose weight for over 6 weeks. I don't understand at all. I am getting very frustrated and am lacking the motivation required to keep this up.
It's soul destroying. kind of, not really, lil bit. Boooooooooooo!!!!!!!!
I better call my friend Kate Moss and see if she has any charlie for me, Kiddingggggg. Ughhhh If only being a crack whore wouldn't ruin my life, morals, values, gums, nostrils, internal organs and brain, then i'd TOTES be set! FML.
In other news, aside from being a fat bride to be, I have been full on. One month and One day until the wedding!
Had a horrific week last week and fought with Harry Potter, stressed myself out to max, now I have terrible skin, hair and cracked lips. I tried to start my second Unit of Tafe but I failed at doing that, then I slept a lot.
This week has been better, I started doing the seating plan for the wedding, redid the budget for a more structured payment plan and now i'm trying to sort out a time frame for the day - it's not going well.
So that's me for now. over it.
Saturday, 24 March 2012
slack
I've been really bad with blogging lately.
I've just been too busy being housey, working out, working and doing wedding things.
Last weekend I went out with Memma and Tiny Dancer it was lots of fun, we only stayed out til two though and then on the train we ran into Pauly Paul and Drew so that was nice.
I submitted my first TAFE Unit for Cert 4 in HR, I have to just re-answer 4 questions which is a bit of a drag. I'll be doing that tonight. I've started doing Pole Dance (Polercise) Lessons, it's so freaking hard. I do it with ball of love and another girl. I'm exceptionally bad at it but hopefully I'll get better, my strength is improving but I'd easily say i'm the worst one in the class - I hate all of the mirrors.
I've started doing the seating plan for the wedding, I've got some awesome tables set so I'm really looking forward to the reception. It should be lots of fun. I still have a fair amount to do and we still have to pay for it all..such a fail.
That's all for now. I'm going to have a nap.
I've just been too busy being housey, working out, working and doing wedding things.
Last weekend I went out with Memma and Tiny Dancer it was lots of fun, we only stayed out til two though and then on the train we ran into Pauly Paul and Drew so that was nice.
I submitted my first TAFE Unit for Cert 4 in HR, I have to just re-answer 4 questions which is a bit of a drag. I'll be doing that tonight. I've started doing Pole Dance (Polercise) Lessons, it's so freaking hard. I do it with ball of love and another girl. I'm exceptionally bad at it but hopefully I'll get better, my strength is improving but I'd easily say i'm the worst one in the class - I hate all of the mirrors.
I've started doing the seating plan for the wedding, I've got some awesome tables set so I'm really looking forward to the reception. It should be lots of fun. I still have a fair amount to do and we still have to pay for it all..such a fail.
That's all for now. I'm going to have a nap.
Monday, 12 March 2012
I'm not dead
Oh Hai!
So I went MIA for a little while, purely because I was busy with my Tallboy moving into our cuteeeeeeeee little house! OMG I LUFF it! It is the best. We have finally got our bed suite and fridge, I am going to start on a wall collage across from our kitchen in a few months or whenever I actually have a spare few hours. I've already framed all the pictures I like but I rushed them all and stuck them up all narrow and uneven so will do it again later. Might add a bit more colour too. I am SO happy in this house. I just can not explain how much I love it. Hopefully next year we can paint it with a new coat of paint and get the floors redone - Can't wait for that.
Apart from that I have arranged more for the wedding, booked a make up artist, got a decoration meeting this wednesday and am going for a food tasting with TB on Thursday night.
I'm also working out heaps, haven't lost ANY weight though :( I now do personal training twice a week, bootcamp once a week and pole and tone class once a week. I have the pole class tonight at 8pm worst time ever. blah. I might have to start going back to the gym in the mornings aswell just to kick the metabolisim into fat burn mode.
I've started my first Tafe unit and have to just check it over and do a project and then I can submit it for review. Hopefully I've understood it correctly. Then I think I'll have to get the second unit done but I emailed the lecturer for clarification today so hopefully I can figure it out soon.
Life update - Life has been pretty good lately. This weekend on Friday Night I went out with Partner and Love Child with two other friends. It was an amazing night!! As I was the only engaged one out of the girls and all the others were single it was decided that I was to be the 'Wingman' - I did so good that I should be referred to as Stinston from now on.
We first went to the Mustang Bar and I went to get a drink and met two UK men, they were lovely, very attractive and friendly. After a few minutes of chatting, a cheeky shot and my amazing skills I got two of the girls introduced and then the rest of the time at the mustang bar was spent with them having a fabulous time with a lot of cheeky pashes.
Our next venue was The Shed, in there we just went to dance but when on the dance floor ran into two other guys, who I kept asking if they were riggers and needed a job - Might aswell help FGL out aswell as my girls. Then the other girls had a cheeky dance and pash with them. Later on in the Shed, Partner fell over and I had to swap my flats for her wedges but I was willing to do that in the name of friendship and then we trudged onto the next place.
It was after 2am at this stage and the Deen was closed or maybe it was lock out and the only next place we found open was Black Betties so we went there and the guys from the Shed followed, Love Child danced with the one called Ollie, while I think Partner just argued or was annoyed with the other one called Jeremy, after about an hour in Black Betties (oh we lost our other two friends on the way there some how) anyway we headed home after that, by the time we got to the train station it was 2 minutes until the last train home left (4am) we decided that we wouldn't run for it, then with 1 minutes to go we decided to sprint.
We ran and ran and ran and then luckily made it onto the train home with honestly 20 seconds to spare. We got home at about 5.30 after walking from the train station to Partners and then we went and got a maccas breakfast. We laughed so much and had a sleep over with Partners mum (As we woke her up) and then we passed out.
It was honestly the best night that I've had in a long time. I really hope we all do it again soon.
So I went MIA for a little while, purely because I was busy with my Tallboy moving into our cuteeeeeeeee little house! OMG I LUFF it! It is the best. We have finally got our bed suite and fridge, I am going to start on a wall collage across from our kitchen in a few months or whenever I actually have a spare few hours. I've already framed all the pictures I like but I rushed them all and stuck them up all narrow and uneven so will do it again later. Might add a bit more colour too. I am SO happy in this house. I just can not explain how much I love it. Hopefully next year we can paint it with a new coat of paint and get the floors redone - Can't wait for that.
Apart from that I have arranged more for the wedding, booked a make up artist, got a decoration meeting this wednesday and am going for a food tasting with TB on Thursday night.
I'm also working out heaps, haven't lost ANY weight though :( I now do personal training twice a week, bootcamp once a week and pole and tone class once a week. I have the pole class tonight at 8pm worst time ever. blah. I might have to start going back to the gym in the mornings aswell just to kick the metabolisim into fat burn mode.
I've started my first Tafe unit and have to just check it over and do a project and then I can submit it for review. Hopefully I've understood it correctly. Then I think I'll have to get the second unit done but I emailed the lecturer for clarification today so hopefully I can figure it out soon.
Life update - Life has been pretty good lately. This weekend on Friday Night I went out with Partner and Love Child with two other friends. It was an amazing night!! As I was the only engaged one out of the girls and all the others were single it was decided that I was to be the 'Wingman' - I did so good that I should be referred to as Stinston from now on.
We first went to the Mustang Bar and I went to get a drink and met two UK men, they were lovely, very attractive and friendly. After a few minutes of chatting, a cheeky shot and my amazing skills I got two of the girls introduced and then the rest of the time at the mustang bar was spent with them having a fabulous time with a lot of cheeky pashes.
Our next venue was The Shed, in there we just went to dance but when on the dance floor ran into two other guys, who I kept asking if they were riggers and needed a job - Might aswell help FGL out aswell as my girls. Then the other girls had a cheeky dance and pash with them. Later on in the Shed, Partner fell over and I had to swap my flats for her wedges but I was willing to do that in the name of friendship and then we trudged onto the next place.
It was after 2am at this stage and the Deen was closed or maybe it was lock out and the only next place we found open was Black Betties so we went there and the guys from the Shed followed, Love Child danced with the one called Ollie, while I think Partner just argued or was annoyed with the other one called Jeremy, after about an hour in Black Betties (oh we lost our other two friends on the way there some how) anyway we headed home after that, by the time we got to the train station it was 2 minutes until the last train home left (4am) we decided that we wouldn't run for it, then with 1 minutes to go we decided to sprint.
We ran and ran and ran and then luckily made it onto the train home with honestly 20 seconds to spare. We got home at about 5.30 after walking from the train station to Partners and then we went and got a maccas breakfast. We laughed so much and had a sleep over with Partners mum (As we woke her up) and then we passed out.
It was honestly the best night that I've had in a long time. I really hope we all do it again soon.
Monday, 13 February 2012
Sunday, 12 February 2012
Seedy Sunday
Life is getting hectic again and I have so much to do. Ugh. Crazy.
Friday morning I went to a personal training session with Kelly my ball of love and then on Friday night after the day from hell I went to dinner with my work girls, it was a nice night but I was exhausted so left pretty early.
Saturday morning I went to breakfast with Kelly my ball of love and our other friend. It was deliciously naughty. Then I did some general house stuff and went to a make up trial in Mandurah, the make up artist is amazing and I am so much happier with her then the first lady I had so I'm really thrilled about that.
Then on Saturday night I headed up to NB with some friends and got a little bit tragically boozy.
We had mexican for dinner and drank a lot of carafes full of alcohol, then trudged into the Brass Monkey and had a few more drinks.
I saw Gotye, Oh Gotye, I saw you side glance and me and yes I know, I know, I too want to punch my memory right in the face.
I played awesome basketball with Drew and we pretended to have moustaches, then after going to the Attic with everyone we head to Bar Open where I felt sooooooo happy. They played all punk rock and it was heaven. I was the happiest.
After that we were supposed to head somewhere else but we ended up going to a strip club and I lost my strip club virginity, it was interesting but a lot better than anything i'd ever freaked out about. After that I ran and caught the train home.
Me kicking Drews bum in basketball… I actually lost by 3 points.
Me at the Brass Monkey totally excited that their bathrooms look like toilets from Hogwarts, old and scaryyy.
Drew and I with our moustaches.
Me collecting feathers as I was so sad that I missed seeing the 2 tonnes fall from the sky. Stupid Feathers.
Me and Alexis gf being cute.
Pauly Paul and I drinking out of our american college party cups.
Bar Open = Heaven.
Huge fan keeping me cool in the sweatbox of bar open
Dani and I with Punk rock type Cam from Modern Family. He was particularly sweaty.
Today I woke up feeling ok, I'm just shattered and so tired. I went to lunch with Harry Potter and we caught up and now i'm wanting to start packing up the house but it looks like a bomb hit it so it's easier to stay in bed.
I have still got to address all of the new envelopes and fix the invites but i'll be doing that this week and then I also have a lot of TAFE stuff to get into. Life over the next few months is going to be hectic.
Friday morning I went to a personal training session with Kelly my ball of love and then on Friday night after the day from hell I went to dinner with my work girls, it was a nice night but I was exhausted so left pretty early.
Saturday morning I went to breakfast with Kelly my ball of love and our other friend. It was deliciously naughty. Then I did some general house stuff and went to a make up trial in Mandurah, the make up artist is amazing and I am so much happier with her then the first lady I had so I'm really thrilled about that.
Then on Saturday night I headed up to NB with some friends and got a little bit tragically boozy.
We had mexican for dinner and drank a lot of carafes full of alcohol, then trudged into the Brass Monkey and had a few more drinks.
I saw Gotye, Oh Gotye, I saw you side glance and me and yes I know, I know, I too want to punch my memory right in the face.
I played awesome basketball with Drew and we pretended to have moustaches, then after going to the Attic with everyone we head to Bar Open where I felt sooooooo happy. They played all punk rock and it was heaven. I was the happiest.
After that we were supposed to head somewhere else but we ended up going to a strip club and I lost my strip club virginity, it was interesting but a lot better than anything i'd ever freaked out about. After that I ran and caught the train home.
Alexi amazed by my pro basketball playing skills.
Today I woke up feeling ok, I'm just shattered and so tired. I went to lunch with Harry Potter and we caught up and now i'm wanting to start packing up the house but it looks like a bomb hit it so it's easier to stay in bed.
I have still got to address all of the new envelopes and fix the invites but i'll be doing that this week and then I also have a lot of TAFE stuff to get into. Life over the next few months is going to be hectic.
Monday, 6 February 2012
sad face
Ugh, I have lost my motivation today.
I just feel sad, and not for any particular reason.
I think I'm just tired.
We move it our little love nest in a few weeks and hopefully that will be a bit of a pick me up, finally after our many years together of his house, my house, this house, that house, we will be in ourrrrr housey. I can't wait for it to be our home, to cherish and to create everlasting memories in.
Work is going well, I go to TAFE tomorrow for my introductory course which I'm excited and nervous for, I just keep trying to improve my confidence. I hope that when I lose a bit more weight and have been in my role a month or so longer that I will be really focused and ready to take on any challenges.
I'm going to bed, i'm over this entry and i'm hungry. blah.
I just feel sad, and not for any particular reason.
I think I'm just tired.
We move it our little love nest in a few weeks and hopefully that will be a bit of a pick me up, finally after our many years together of his house, my house, this house, that house, we will be in ourrrrr housey. I can't wait for it to be our home, to cherish and to create everlasting memories in.
Work is going well, I go to TAFE tomorrow for my introductory course which I'm excited and nervous for, I just keep trying to improve my confidence. I hope that when I lose a bit more weight and have been in my role a month or so longer that I will be really focused and ready to take on any challenges.
I'm going to bed, i'm over this entry and i'm hungry. blah.
Saturday, 4 February 2012
Date night
Today has been a pretty cruisey day for me, I woke up after a sleep in and did 100 sit ups and the quit with the exercise, then Tallboy and I went wedding ring shopping and I found my ring! It's sooo thin and had diamonds along the front of the band and it fits under my solitaire diamond well, I'm so happy, I love it so much and I just want to wear it now! Love it!
Then after that we went to his parents house for lunch, healthy chicken and salad. After that I dropped Tallboy off at his friends house and I did some healthy food shopping.
I came home and vegged out, I didn't do any of the packing or de-clutering I had planned, I sat on my bed, looking at shoes online and emailed Lovechild, I watched cooking shows and addressed a few wedding envelopes.
Then at 5.30 I picked up Tallboy and we went to dinner at outback jacks, I wasn't a fan. I got a salad in an edible bowl, I didn't like it, I had some of TB's steak but I didn't like that either. Then we went to the movies to see 'A few Best Men' I love how wedding movies are coming back in lately (Bridesmaids, a few best men, next will be 'the vow') anyway it's an english movie set in Australia, I really enjoyed it (I love british movies, brigitte jones, love actually, the one with the kid and hugh grant) it was quick whitted and it didn't try too hard, it was easy to watch and the guy that played Tom is highlarious, he reminds me of Ron Weasley (part ranga theory and just part, good acting, quick humour) So that was nice.
We've come home now and TB is playing playstation and I just wrote more envelopes and my hands are sore so I thought i'd blog.
I'm so ready for bed, what a nana!
Then after that we went to his parents house for lunch, healthy chicken and salad. After that I dropped Tallboy off at his friends house and I did some healthy food shopping.
I came home and vegged out, I didn't do any of the packing or de-clutering I had planned, I sat on my bed, looking at shoes online and emailed Lovechild, I watched cooking shows and addressed a few wedding envelopes.
Then at 5.30 I picked up Tallboy and we went to dinner at outback jacks, I wasn't a fan. I got a salad in an edible bowl, I didn't like it, I had some of TB's steak but I didn't like that either. Then we went to the movies to see 'A few Best Men' I love how wedding movies are coming back in lately (Bridesmaids, a few best men, next will be 'the vow') anyway it's an english movie set in Australia, I really enjoyed it (I love british movies, brigitte jones, love actually, the one with the kid and hugh grant) it was quick whitted and it didn't try too hard, it was easy to watch and the guy that played Tom is highlarious, he reminds me of Ron Weasley (part ranga theory and just part, good acting, quick humour) So that was nice.
We've come home now and TB is playing playstation and I just wrote more envelopes and my hands are sore so I thought i'd blog.
I'm so ready for bed, what a nana!
Friday, 3 February 2012
So...
So, after my Negative Nancy day yesterday I have managed to slightly pull my overweight self together to try and start again and carry on.
I started by eating healthy today, I had a sensible breakfast (Ham and tomato in a low calorie wrap) lunch was the same, I had a cup of tea and 2L of water. I had another wrap with vegemite for afternoon tea and dinner was 1/3 of a subway salad - the tune freaked me out royal. It went like this, bite 1: delicious, bite 2: om nom, bite 3: so tasty, bite 4: what the feckkkk??? ewwwww. Bite 4 tasted way too 'fishy' so that was it, no more dinner noms for me.
I also decided that my confidence has been way too shot lately, usually i'm pretty out there but the last few weeks I have regressed and it is majorly due to weight. So I got hair extensions put in, it's not much but having longer hair makes me feel much better.
Then when I got home I did a spray tan (well technically I bought a spray tan machine and now make Tallboy spraytan me) but this also helps me feel better.
I will be getting heavily into the gym again in the next few months, I haven't had a confidence issue like this before and when you have a job where you are required to know the facts and talk your employees in the eye you don't have time to hide in a shell.
Tomorrow I'm going to look at wedding band shopping and then I just want to relax but i'll have to re-address a whole pile of envelopes and start trying to pack up this house ready for the move to 'Coco's on Kumar' - I totes just named our house. Then tomorrow night Tallboy and I are dating.
Sunday I might be seeing Harry Potter, was originally for an icecream date but I don't want to cave so might have to reschedule.
Here are some more Engagement shots:
I started by eating healthy today, I had a sensible breakfast (Ham and tomato in a low calorie wrap) lunch was the same, I had a cup of tea and 2L of water. I had another wrap with vegemite for afternoon tea and dinner was 1/3 of a subway salad - the tune freaked me out royal. It went like this, bite 1: delicious, bite 2: om nom, bite 3: so tasty, bite 4: what the feckkkk??? ewwwww. Bite 4 tasted way too 'fishy' so that was it, no more dinner noms for me.
I also decided that my confidence has been way too shot lately, usually i'm pretty out there but the last few weeks I have regressed and it is majorly due to weight. So I got hair extensions put in, it's not much but having longer hair makes me feel much better.
Then when I got home I did a spray tan (well technically I bought a spray tan machine and now make Tallboy spraytan me) but this also helps me feel better.
I will be getting heavily into the gym again in the next few months, I haven't had a confidence issue like this before and when you have a job where you are required to know the facts and talk your employees in the eye you don't have time to hide in a shell.
Tomorrow I'm going to look at wedding band shopping and then I just want to relax but i'll have to re-address a whole pile of envelopes and start trying to pack up this house ready for the move to 'Coco's on Kumar' - I totes just named our house. Then tomorrow night Tallboy and I are dating.
Sunday I might be seeing Harry Potter, was originally for an icecream date but I don't want to cave so might have to reschedule.
Here are some more Engagement shots:
Thursday, 2 February 2012
Wakey Wakey!!!
The wake up call.
Everyone has them.
I think the first thick smack in the face happened tonight.
I got our engagement photos from December and they are beautiful, perfectly shot and I love them.
I hate me in them, I look like I am pregnant, I have cubby arms, the double chin shadow and a chubby belly. I'm horrified at how I have let myself go.
The photos are gorgeous and I made them into a slideshow with a beautiful song and it made me feel a bit better, but I am determined that the next time Jimmy shoots us on our wedding day I will have lost weight and I will have toned my horrible arms, stomach, chin and thighs.
Anyway that's my own fault and my own demon that I have to overcome and I shouldn't have left it so late. fml.
Jimmy is an excellent and talented photographer and everyone should check him out. www.izo.com.au
Everyone has them.
I think the first thick smack in the face happened tonight.
I got our engagement photos from December and they are beautiful, perfectly shot and I love them.
I hate me in them, I look like I am pregnant, I have cubby arms, the double chin shadow and a chubby belly. I'm horrified at how I have let myself go.
The photos are gorgeous and I made them into a slideshow with a beautiful song and it made me feel a bit better, but I am determined that the next time Jimmy shoots us on our wedding day I will have lost weight and I will have toned my horrible arms, stomach, chin and thighs.
Anyway that's my own fault and my own demon that I have to overcome and I shouldn't have left it so late. fml.
Jimmy is an excellent and talented photographer and everyone should check him out. www.izo.com.au
Wednesday, 1 February 2012
What a suprise
What a surprise.
I am absolutely exhausted again.
This weekend I am doing absolutely nothing!
Ok… I will do a few wedding things, but apart from that it's going to be a saturday and sunday full of napping.
Today I worked pretty well, slowing getting there, I feel like my self esteem isn't good enough for meeting my candidates at the moment, I def feel that it would improve if I lost weight and if I were prettier but can't change my face so need to change my weight, anyway met a candidate, had my review, a lot of updating and changing files, I came home, did washing, cooked dinner, cleaned the bathroom, hung up washing and cleaned the dishes, got fuel, emailed and discussed fixing the wedding invites, paid deposit for decor and painted my nails a prostitute red. I'm supposed to straighten my hair now but stuff it, i'm going to bed.
I will get back into blogging later, when i'm not such a nanna.
Tuesday, 31 January 2012
blergh
I'm tired, crampy and bloated.
Shakes failed yesterday and I jumped off the bandwagon, although Tallboy made me go for a 1.4k run with him… I hardly ran at all.
I am going to keep trying. I just need more self control and to exercise.
ugh life is failing me today.
so i'm watching new girl and sleeping.
Shakes failed yesterday and I jumped off the bandwagon, although Tallboy made me go for a 1.4k run with him… I hardly ran at all.
I am going to keep trying. I just need more self control and to exercise.
ugh life is failing me today.
so i'm watching new girl and sleeping.
Sunday, 29 January 2012
Laziest
I've been so lazy and have not blogged at all lately.
Basically right now I feel SO fat! I've put on so much weight and it's terrible. So back into shakes (which I have been terribly with for the last two weeks) and exercise starting tomorrow.
NO clothes fit me or look good, I look so feral in everything, esp my work uniform. I don't want to go out and wear dresses cos when I do I feel horrible. hating myself today. blergh.
I will update properly when I get a chance.
Quick update.
Thursday - Australia Day at Memmas, saw Harry Potter, melted, was a beached whale in a mini paddling pool, loved the water, melted.
Friday Night - Tallboys birthday, lots of drinking, lots of laughing, lots of taking care of a very drunk giant.
Saturday - Ran around town with Haveachat and did a whole pile of wedding stuff, got my centerpieces sorted, got our decorations for the wedding sorted, went to lunch, lounged, got more centerpiece stuff, went to dinner with memma, hung out with tallboy.
Sunday - hung out with Lovechild and came home and watched the new girl, did some washing.
Monday - Tomorrow, back at work, at the new desk, hate the new desk. I also have to go to Thornlie to sort out my tafe enrollment. I'm terrified so nervous, haven't studied in years and am scared i'll fail. So very very nervous. Back to RPM and shakes. it;s going to be very hard.
Basically right now I feel SO fat! I've put on so much weight and it's terrible. So back into shakes (which I have been terribly with for the last two weeks) and exercise starting tomorrow.
NO clothes fit me or look good, I look so feral in everything, esp my work uniform. I don't want to go out and wear dresses cos when I do I feel horrible. hating myself today. blergh.
I will update properly when I get a chance.
Quick update.
Thursday - Australia Day at Memmas, saw Harry Potter, melted, was a beached whale in a mini paddling pool, loved the water, melted.
Friday Night - Tallboys birthday, lots of drinking, lots of laughing, lots of taking care of a very drunk giant.
Saturday - Ran around town with Haveachat and did a whole pile of wedding stuff, got my centerpieces sorted, got our decorations for the wedding sorted, went to lunch, lounged, got more centerpiece stuff, went to dinner with memma, hung out with tallboy.
Sunday - hung out with Lovechild and came home and watched the new girl, did some washing.
Monday - Tomorrow, back at work, at the new desk, hate the new desk. I also have to go to Thornlie to sort out my tafe enrollment. I'm terrified so nervous, haven't studied in years and am scared i'll fail. So very very nervous. Back to RPM and shakes. it;s going to be very hard.
Monday, 23 January 2012
Thank you
Thank you to everyone who crossed their fingers for us, everyones good thoughts paid off and we managed to find a stunning venue on our exact wedding date that was available. I love the new venue and I can't believe how lucky TB and I were.
Sunday, 22 January 2012
Biggest Bridal Stress Ever
You know what's awesome 3 months before getting married? Having your heart broken by the Venue letting you down.
Tallboy and I viewed our wedding venue last year at the end of winter and it was spectacular, the drive down the dusty red road through two lush green paddocks perfectly lined by leafless trees set up the romantic mood and set up the suspense for entering the estate. It was absolutely stunning and I was thrilled when TB and I found the venue, we were so excited.
We went there again today to show the inlaws to ensure that they too saw our vision. We drove down the red dusty road and on each side where the lush green grass paddocks which were envisioned to have the marquee and festival of love set up was dry dead crisp grass. The paddocks are not irrigated like I was lead to believe. The venue is well and truely effed. I had previously asked the lady last year to ensure that this wouldn't happen and she had said that it wouldnt be dried out, she said it was irrigated. She clearly was talking about the few meters of land around the hotel part of the estate. I am heart broken, absolutely heart broken.
So now I am trying to find a standard wedding venue, goodbye beautiful wedding editorial rustic wedding look wedding. Hello standard wedding. Worst case senario we just have to have it at the dead funeral look estate but I'm just devastated right now. I've been crying for hours.
Your wedding is supposed to be the best day of your life, it's supposed to be everything youve ever dreamed of and it's supposed to be beautiful. I just feel like this is yet another kick in the stomach for me, I've had a lot of shit in my life, you'd think i'd get a break.
This is the first time I feel like a real bridezilla but I don't think what I expected was uncalled for. I just want what was promised to me and I get fuck all. I'm going to go and cry again now.
Tallboy and I viewed our wedding venue last year at the end of winter and it was spectacular, the drive down the dusty red road through two lush green paddocks perfectly lined by leafless trees set up the romantic mood and set up the suspense for entering the estate. It was absolutely stunning and I was thrilled when TB and I found the venue, we were so excited.
We went there again today to show the inlaws to ensure that they too saw our vision. We drove down the red dusty road and on each side where the lush green grass paddocks which were envisioned to have the marquee and festival of love set up was dry dead crisp grass. The paddocks are not irrigated like I was lead to believe. The venue is well and truely effed. I had previously asked the lady last year to ensure that this wouldn't happen and she had said that it wouldnt be dried out, she said it was irrigated. She clearly was talking about the few meters of land around the hotel part of the estate. I am heart broken, absolutely heart broken.
So now I am trying to find a standard wedding venue, goodbye beautiful wedding editorial rustic wedding look wedding. Hello standard wedding. Worst case senario we just have to have it at the dead funeral look estate but I'm just devastated right now. I've been crying for hours.
Your wedding is supposed to be the best day of your life, it's supposed to be everything youve ever dreamed of and it's supposed to be beautiful. I just feel like this is yet another kick in the stomach for me, I've had a lot of shit in my life, you'd think i'd get a break.
This is the first time I feel like a real bridezilla but I don't think what I expected was uncalled for. I just want what was promised to me and I get fuck all. I'm going to go and cry again now.
Monday, 16 January 2012
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