My book

So I've started writing my book. I have no depth to it. It has no storyline so far, but I have to say it makes me feel better.

here's a little bit:

He looked at me, it was such a caring and gentle gaze, he kindly brushed some stray hairs out of my face and before I knew it I had pushed myself into him, I kissed his face, his stubble grazed my face, I interlocked my mouth with his and to my surprise he was kissing me back, it was soft and passionate. I mirrored his actions and I latched onto the bottom of his lip giving it a gentle tug. I continued kissing him I couldn’t help myself and my hands were running through his hair. I felt as though I had been connected to him for hours but it had only been a few minutes until the drunken embrace was broken. My stomach was looping and I was euphoric, feeling some many emotions that I hadn’t felt for so long.


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P.s my book isn't going to be a 50 shades of grey or a twilight, it's not sadistic, it's not pornographic. It's just something that I want to create for myself, something that has a happy ending.

Tallboy

This guy.

Melts.

My.

Heart.

My heart is yours

wahmbulance

I get so sooky when I'm sick. I can't help but think of how different my life would be if my mum were still here. I miss her everyday and I just wish that I could have her back. I have a good life, but it will never be complete. I love my husband and I love my friends, but there are days when it all goes wrong and all you need is the 'mum hug' just the fact that I can't just pick up the phone and call her sucks. I can't just call her and ask her for advice or meet up with her for a coffee. It's pretty fucking bullshit. She always said I could be anything that I wanted to be, she found her career that she loved when she was 40. I just really need her today.

reallyyyy?

I can't believe I'm still sick, got sick on Thursday, went home sick from work on Friday, felt ok on Saturday morning, got worse in the arvo and now Sunday night still have horrible fevers. Sucks a fat one that's for sure.

I was supposed to start back at the gym tomorrow but that's not going to happen when I have such a hot fever. I'll have to focus on getting better and then get back to it. I'm still going to eat healthy and get back on track with eating well.

Tallboy and I have started paining the house. Only little bits and pieces but I'm so excited that we are working on it. I can't wait until we've done the walls and then once that's done new floors, skirting boards and then I can work on accessorising the house!
New curtains, shower curtains, wall art!!, chandeliers and rugs. It's going to be amazing!

I can't wait. My fever is getting worse so i'm out.
bye.

*le sigh*

I WISH I KNEW WHAT I WANTED TO DO WITH MY LIFE.

My Olsen Twins Wedding

OMG you guys! It's finally happened, Memma is OFF the Market.
Captain Planet finally proposed to her, in a plane no doubt, pfft of course he'd do it in a plane, he's got to be in the sky being Captain Planet and all.

Congratulations Memma, you are going to be the most stunning bride & i'm going to be crying like crazy.

Memma got engaged on saturday and its only Monday night now and we've probably texted each other about 8 million messages, pictures of rings (Memma get's to choose or make her own - lucky thing) & we have be researching venues like crazy.

I'm so happy for her & I'm actually really excited to be able to help plan a wedding that isn't mine. SO much more fun that way.

:) :)

Last month I went to my brothers wedding, it was so beautiful and I felt so blessed to be a part of it. It was a beautiful ceremony and reception and I had so much fun. Grant and his wife are now roaming around europe having the time of their lives. I'm so jelly.

A picture from our wedding photos love it so much :)

just exploring Perth.

My lunch today, just because.

Our House! Tallboy and I are currently going to renovate. At this point in time we need to paint all of the walls, do feature walls, get wedding photos and other prints ordered for hanging, get new bed covers and all of that. but it's just nice to finally have all of the rooms de-cluttered. 

update

Another update because I've been so slack. I honestly think that lounging and relaxing should be a sport I would win at it. I love wasting my days just plodding around doing nothing, watching mindless tv and looking at pretty things online. It's kind of really terrible how much I love it. I mean this whole long weekend the weather has been insane like too good to spend inside, but i've spent it inside anyway. I need to work on that.

This weekend was a long weekend, ugh so good! So sad to go back to work tomorrow.

Friday night tallboy and I went out to dinner and a movie. We saw Looper, it was actually pretty good for an action movie.
On Saturday I was supposed to do my Tafe work whilst Tallboy went to stupid bucks party (I hate strippers, stupid sluzzies.) then my Partner in crime came over, we drank and caught up, I made us dinner while we just continued to drink and laugh. It was really nice.
On Sunday Tallboy came home, we went to the movies again (he just loves the movies) we saw Bait in 3D it was the worst movie ever, truly terrible. We also went to masters and bought some paint to start on our house make over. I painted a little bit of the house and then Memma came over to hang out with us for a bit it was really nice.
Today Tallboy was in a really lazy mood, he just wanted to chill out and not do much, so I spent the day just chilling with him, we painted our breakfast bar and started on some other house make over things. It was really nice. I'll start doing some before and after photos but our house is going to be a long process. I'm excited for the end result but I know it will take a long time.

I've also started writing a book, just something stupid to make me feel better about not using my 'writing' ability. Maybe I'll be able to put some sort of thrill or twist into it so it becomes something sellable but for right now it's just mishmash crap.

I've never known

I've never known what i've wanted to do with my life.
All I know is that since my young teens i've been a hopeless romantic and i've been a writer. I've not necessarily been a good writer, i've not necessarily been good at grammar or punctuation. However, I've put my thoughts to paper and I've blurted out my emotions, it's as if it's all i've ever known.

I used to write poems, write raps, write short stories, write pages and pages of nonsense and it just felt right. I wish that I had taken that and just gone in some sort of direction with it. I've had diaries ever since I can remember, i've had at least 3 online blogs that I can recall and I still come back at 25 years of age and put my thoughts out here.

I just wish that I didn't have to 'wish' to know what I want to do. I'm so continuously lost. People say 'Who cares' if you don't know what you want to do? Um are you serious? Life is so short and precious, what's the point spending it feeling like you are less that what you are? Or feeling like you have something special but don't know how to use it? Or struggle on a daily basis because you need to know what else is out there?

I'm just going to start writing a novel on some shit.

Such is life

I'm feeling a bit down tonight.

I hate what growing up can do to the mind.
Kids are so fearless, so curious, free and oh got the innocence.
I remember being little and watching 'Drop Dead Fred' over and over and over oblivious to it. It was my favourite movie. I tried to watch it a few years ago and it freaked me out.
I used to love horse riding and water slides and then when I did those things a few years ago and went to theme parks in America I was petrified of the rides and refused to go on them.
I hate how a little bit of fear can just paralyse what you are capable of doing.

Today I really just wish that I could run away.
I dont know where I'd go or who I'd turn to, I'd just keep going until I got to somewhere, where the waves crashed on the sand and I could collapse into a heap and just be still and calm. I honestly can't even go to the beach by myself because I'm too scared that knowing my luck a murder would be lurking in the bushes. Bad people in the world are bullshit. Stupid effing murders and predators lurking in places that I want to run away to. If I want to run away I'd have to take a security guard and that just defeats the purpose of running away to be alone, even though the thing that upsets me the most is the fact that i'm alone.

MIND EFF RIGHT THERE PEOPLE.

Update 2394329083094832

So I can't even recall what i've been up to lately. WAY too much.

Nights out clubbing.
Date nights with the boy.
Goodbye dinner / city nights with friends who are going travelling.
Impulsive icecream trips.
Dinner Parties.
Work outs.
Diets.
Binges.
House reno planning.
Husband / Wife plans.
Smiles.
Laughs
& rarely any tears.

Life's been good lately.

Tonight I was discussing wedding songs with my brother for his wedding coming up in two weeks!! It's so exciting, he's getting so excited and it's so cute to see my older brother so happy and so ecstatic about the approaching day. I'll be doing a reading which Im so nervous about, but i'm also doing a speech which is fine. I'm not nervous about the speech, just the reading.

My Pa is coming to stay with us on Thursday night so I'm hoping he'll want to go to dinner and the movies or something. We will wait and see.

My plan to do TAFE at work on my early days has failed as I keep being unable to log in from their system so I'm going to make myself do it on the weekends for a few hours. It really should be something I can do. I just hate how it won't work, at work. :(

This weekend I dont really have plans so I'm hoping to focus a lot on my tafe work and get it sorted out ASAP.

That's about it for now.

Wedding Fame

Publishhhhheeeeddddd.

Our wedding has been featured in a few online blogs. Quite Exciting. :)

http://www.boho-weddings.com/2012/08/15/alicia-and-aarons-converse-wearing-carnival-loving-diy-australian-wedding-by-izo-photography/

http://simaceito.com/a-dois/a-dois-momento-romantico-da-semana-9/?lang=en

http://www.aphroditesweddingblog.com/blog/2012/08/20/real-wedding-a-pretty-in-pink-funfair-wedding/

http://theknot.ninemsn.com.au/community/blogs/diary-of-an-australian-bride/abby/picking-the-photographer

If I were Rich

Oh the things I would do.

I know that money doesn't buy happiness but it sure as hell does hell. Not worrying about bills and being able to just live life and enjoy it in all aspects. It would be so granddd.

If I were rich I would be so excited. I'd travel, and I'd buy more houses but if I were just a little bit rich I'd still love to do up my housey that Tallboy and I have. I LOVE our housey but it NEEDS a lot of work.

Oh the thingssssssssss I do.
I'd do up my home with floorboards, a fresh coat of paint, wallpaper feature walls, and a deck. Oh it would be glorious. My walls would have a straight wall collage (not the crooked one that I've done and now had to rip off the walls and take chunks of paint with it) I'd have black and white photos of tallboy and I.

My bathrooms would have the fluffiest giantest bath towels, my shampoo and conditioner would be an endless supply of Kerestase, my make up would consist of Mac and Clinique.

My dogs would have a personal groomer so they had that show quality brush out, not the measly 'I've been brushing you for half an hour and you're still a mess look.'

Then after living in our house for a few years Tallboy and I could buy another house right on the beach (because we'd be rich) and it would be Oh so magical.

I just love my house but I hate having to wait to fix it up. It will be worth it, but waiting sucks. Lotto?

type type type

Too tired to blog - I am a terrible blogger lately.

Friday Night - 

Nothing. No Tafe. Lazy. 

Saturday -

Ran around with too much to do. 

Rage.

Hate shops on saturdays.

Sat night - 

S.I.L Hens night.

cuttttteeeeee Hen.

Terrible males.

Clubbing.

Cracked it.

Dank Heavennn xxxx

No monies.

Train.

Giant.

McDonalds.

Sleeeppppp

Sunday -

Sleeeeeeeeeeppppp

Eat

Dying

Monday - 

Dead Car battery.

Late to work.

biting tongue.

Finish work.

RPM Hell

ouchies.

So tired.

Bed.

Worst Blogger ever. yay for you.

Clickity Click

Here is the link to our amazing wedding photographer with some official wedding photos:
http://www.izo.com.au/alicia-aaron-wedding-in-mandurah/

Jimmy was also featured on an amazing wedding website and the person who wrote the piece also used one of our wedding photos in the feature. Lovely :)
http://theknot.ninemsn.com.au/community/blogs/diary-of-an-australian-bride/abby/picking-the-photographer

updateeee dayyyyy

What a crazy busy week!
Monday night I caught up with H with some work girls as she was back from her swing away, I got to catch up with Mumma Stace too and that was so nice. It was a really nice evening. I basically inhaled my salad for dinner - eating healthy again is harddddd.
On Tuesday night Memma and I decided to go on an impromptu dinner date to a local cafe near her house, the meals were delicious (we had reef on reef with Salad) and the stories we went on about were highlarious. So that was really nice.

Today I had a hectic day at work and I still currently have a headache. Hopefully I get an awesome sleep tonight to sleep it off. After work I had to go and buy a spare tyre for my car, I felt so grown up doing that, how lame.

In regards to the goals I set on sunday night so far I've stepped up in terms of my skin routine and trying to be more productive.
I have failed with dog walking, manicuring nails and study.
Baby steps guys, baby steps.

Tomorrow I finish work at 4pm so I'm hoping to get a whole pile of house stuff sorted.
Friday night I don't have anything planned so I'll try to do a few hours of study.
Saturday I will have a few random things to do and then it's my future sister in laws hens night so I need to choose an outfit for that and myself, lovechild and Memma are meeting her and her friends in the City.
Sunday I'll hopefully get myself together and work on a meal plan.

So that's it for now. Pretty average lifestyle I guess. Just full on, but I'm happy and I love it and I love my Tallboy.

25 and mid year resolutions

So in order to write this post I really should have looked at what my 'new year resolutions' were first, but I can't be bothered doing that right now. This is just a quick entry.

I turned 25 on Friday, I went to work and was spoilt by Memma, Ball of Love, Doops, all my department, Lois, TallBoy sent me balloons and Love Child was the sweetest sending me wonderful flowers which really moved me. It was a good day, I made a terrible cake without sugar and my coworkers were polite about it. Yay for my baking skills.

That night Tallboy and I had reservations at one of Perth's finest restaurants 'C' restaurant.  I had been quite sick that week so I asked him to cancel it so we could eat chinese food, sit in our track pants and watch bad TV. That is exactly how I spent my 25th birthday night and it was amazing. I really needed it.

Saturday I spent the day with friends and saturday night I caught up with Mortgage 25.

It was a good weekend, today I did nothing. I have come down with a chest infection so I needed a day in bed and on the couch. Sucks that it hasn't quite shifted yet.

So I don't know what's brought on my new focus but as I had been quite down during the week missing my mum and it being so close to a birthday I think I gave myself a bit of a wake up call. I haven't been looking after myself at all. I've been quite reckless with my lifestyle, my body and my choices.

Health has always been something I've been lazy with, completely taken it for-granted and skin care too. I know exactly what time period I gave up on looking after myself, I know exactly when I became depressive and lacked regard for myself. It's been too long and I need to get myself together, I'm 25 now, that's time to officially grow up. Last week I went on a carb and sugar binge and my skin has paid for it and also with getting continuously sick I know I need to get my act together.

So my new focus is to be selfish with what I do, I need to force myself to get into a new routine, with food, body, lifestyle and study. I need to instead of sit on the couch, walk the dogs, take my make up off and fix my chipped nail polish. I need to study at least a few hours every week. & I'm finally going to make myself do it.

I do as I said before currently have a chest infection so instead of hitting the gym hard I will just ensure that I walk the dogs daily until I'm all cleared up.
I'm going to ensure that when I get home from work the first thing I do is take off my make up and do my new skin care regime (Natio Young products are working wonders.)
I will also set up a time frame for each weeknight that I do, do the required study time.

These are things that I'm working on, i'm working on being more positive. I love whinging, I think to me whinging and complaining is a comfort. I have had some terrible things happen in my life, I have had a broken heart for too many years now but I need to grow and try to mend.

I will get there.

blah

I had intended to write a really long entry with photos galore and intricate details about my weekend but I'm about to pass out. I've been crazy busy.

So I'm going to try and summarise.

Friday Night - Perth City with Partner and Love Child.
Crazy.
Shots.
Funny.
Singing.
Shots.
BiPolar.
Stripper Pole.
Wingman.
90s Hits.
Shots.
Success at Wingman.
Abo strangle no fun time.
Shots.
Shoe Swapping.
Shots.
King size bed.
Love Child.
Myspace.
Naps.

Saturday.
Dieddddd.
Napped.
McDonalds.

Saturday Night.
Fantastic.
Twinner.
Friends.
Sheesha.
Stories.
Fun Times.
Naw factors.
Had so much fun.



Sunday.
supposed to study.
ended up shopping.
bargains.
Twinner and Love Child.
Perth City.
Bad bad driver.
Lucky Shag where?
Ended up in Como.
Sunday sesh and good food.
Bliss.

Sunday Night.
Sooky Tallboy.
Affectionate Tallboy.
Silly Tallyboy.
Just love my tallboy

fabulaassssssssss

I love the show the new girl because I love Zooey Deschanel.
So many of my friends have said that her quirky character, Jess Day on the show reminds them of me.
I have to agree.
I really am that loveable and annoying all at the same time, plus i'm highlarious.