Friday, 21 September 2012

Such is life

I'm feeling a bit down tonight.

I hate what growing up can do to the mind.
Kids are so fearless, so curious, free and oh got the innocence.
I remember being little and watching 'Drop Dead Fred' over and over and over oblivious to it. It was my favourite movie. I tried to watch it a few years ago and it freaked me out.
I used to love horse riding and water slides and then when I did those things a few years ago and went to theme parks in America I was petrified of the rides and refused to go on them.
I hate how a little bit of fear can just paralyse what you are capable of doing.

Today I really just wish that I could run away.
I dont know where I'd go or who I'd turn to, I'd just keep going until I got to somewhere, where the waves crashed on the sand and I could collapse into a heap and just be still and calm. I honestly can't even go to the beach by myself because I'm too scared that knowing my luck a murder would be lurking in the bushes. Bad people in the world are bullshit. Stupid effing murders and predators lurking in places that I want to run away to. If I want to run away I'd have to take a security guard and that just defeats the purpose of running away to be alone, even though the thing that upsets me the most is the fact that i'm alone.


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