wahmbulance

I get so sooky when I'm sick. I can't help but think of how different my life would be if my mum were still here. I miss her everyday and I just wish that I could have her back. I have a good life, but it will never be complete. I love my husband and I love my friends, but there are days when it all goes wrong and all you need is the 'mum hug' just the fact that I can't just pick up the phone and call her sucks. I can't just call her and ask her for advice or meet up with her for a coffee. It's pretty fucking bullshit. She always said I could be anything that I wanted to be, she found her career that she loved when she was 40. I just really need her today.